Aka Justin Bobby!

The start

Tomorrow is the start of a new page in my life, in the last week or two things have happened which have changed my whole point of view on life. I find i wish i could have known someone better, maybe i could have saved her. I suppose what will be will be, it doesn’t change the guilt i feel tho, the fact she passed away isn’t the issue, its the fact she ended it herself is. It got to the point in her life that she didn’t want to go on, if she would have said then i would have done anything for her. If only, i wish we was friends after what ever we had was but it just didn’t work out.

The guilt is the driving factor for me now, that with the fact I start uni gives me the chance to set a mile stone to make them changes. I need to learn to finish everything i start, listen to what my body is telling me and try to let go of stress easier. Once all that is done, i hope nothing will happen to anyone else i care about or did care about once upon a time. Anyone i know how ever much should know that i will always listen, help and give all i can, Just say!

I only know two people on tumblr and one of them is claire who i suppose i would know if anything was wrong. I guess i should post that on sumat more public, but i don’t wanna sound like a fag haha. Anyway thats one of my first rant about my feelings in awhile…